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[06 Oct 2005|08:40am]
I have realized the need to be more selective with whom I share personal information.
I also know that this journal is sad and gross and tired. I want to write about something more than stupid boys.
So I am starting fresh, turning over a new leaf. I got me a Xanga account.
If you are a non-crazy friend and/or would like to be one, email me (jones.sf @gmail.) and I'll send you info on how to get to my Xanga.

[17 Aug 2005|01:48am]
I had a spectacular date.
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[14 Aug 2005|11:46am]
I think Takeru Kobayashi is hella hot.
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[06 Aug 2005|12:44pm]
I think changing jobs may be in order...
But without any work experience, im kinda SOL.
Anyone know of a good job opportunity in the city?
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[03 Aug 2005|06:44pm]
I am embarking on a quest for good friends. I have been on Friendster, Myspace and Downelink for a while, but have only met a few people.
But lonely bored nights at home no more!
I am gonna start hanging out with random internet people.
I will find cool friends who have cool friends, and I will network and be social and happy.
The end.
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[03 Aug 2005|07:27am]
Hey, so i need a fucking vacation. Bad.
And I have been talking to this college student online who lives in his parents condo in Hawaii...
Is it totally insane to go visit someone I have never met?
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[26 Jul 2005|07:31am]
So I'm reading Jared Diamond's "Guns, Germs, and Steel" It's crazy interesting. I feel like such a fucking braniac when I read it cuz its so dense and... science-errific.
Fun thing I learned today: Pizarro's 168 soldiers fought off 80,000 Incan soldiers without losing a single life at Cajamarca in 1532. This can be attributed to many technological, cultural and historical advantages, which are in turn a direct result of the geography and environment in which societies develop, Diamond argues.
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[25 Jul 2005|08:45pm]
I feel like all the personal growth I have accomplished since my turbulent emotional high school days is falling away now. In my current unending funk, i cannot control my emotions. i am irrational with who i get attached to and i ask too much of people. especially those who could be great friends. in high school i was voted biggest whiner. and i deserved it. so i tried to "grow up" as much as i could, and to let go a little, not be so fucking dramatic. santa barbara really helped me relax. but its all over now. im once again so sucked into trying to figure out why i am so unhappy that i dont have the capacity to do anything worthwhile with my time. furthermore, my depression is very much tied to my lack of a social life, my lack of a group of friends with whom i really connect. but now that i am a whiner again, i am scaring away potential friends left and right with my overzealous honest sharing. its a vicious cycle i tell you. and i dont know how to get out.
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[25 Jul 2005|08:08am]
And I had a dream that I sang a Gwen Stefani song in front of class and everyone laughed at me, so I cried.
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[18 Jul 2005|10:12am]
Masa is coming tomorrow and I got the day off to meet him at the airport! \(^_^)/
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[18 Jul 2005|09:08am]
I can't believe it. That tiny fender bender... is gonna cost me $2000+ to fix. That sucks.
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[15 Jul 2005|07:48am]
I think its funny that within a week, the UK knows so much about the bombings, and have caught some of the bad guys. Here we are, years on, and they found one guy to bust for 9/11. Either that, or they just don't tell the US public what they actually have.
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[09 Jul 2005|07:57am]
I try to be independent, I try to be ok with this, but I spend every fucking night alone after work. And I cant take it. I come home and eat and sleep and its killing me. I need friends to hang out with, I need someone to see "fantastic four" with. my weekend plans: see that movie alone and sleep a lot. thats it. and the wellbutrin can only help me so far.
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[07 Jul 2005|02:24pm]
this whole week I have come home from work, eaten dinner, and sat around alone before sleeping. I am trying to be comfortable with independence/solitude, but I crave some social interaction. I need friends...
I just dont know how to make them.
Anyone know cool peepz in the city??
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[06 Jul 2005|08:07am]
Ok so I am reading "The Barbary Coast: An Informal History of the San Francisco Underworld" and I am thrilled to realize that I am enjoying reading about history immensely. I particularly enjoyed the chapter on chinese gangs, and the amusing stories of 300 pound female brothel owners named "pigeon-toed sal" or "the galloping cow".

3 directors in a SCORE! center:
Center Director: the big cheese, Manages revenue, budget, other directors
Advantage Program Director: #2, manages the floor, ordering, member service systems
Assistant Director: the new guy (me) responsible for providing great customer service and continuing support in sales
Each position is full time, 46 hrs....
I am the AD in Albany. Our APD transfered to another center, so we have been 2 coach all month, taking on more responsibilities, to make up for missing Kristin. (ToT)
Now, My CD is on her honeymoon for 2 weeks. I am running the place. Trying to manage the center, im held accountable for sales, doing payroll and managing my staff of assistant coaches, providing stellar member services etc. im doing the full time work of 3 people alone.
and its like triage. I can only do a couple of really important tasks each day, and I have a huge list of things that WILL NOT GET DONE.
That stresses me out? Only a little. I am learning to prioritize and I love love love the heaps of responsibility. I respond well to taking on more tasks and more duties, and I rocked the center last month!!
This month, starting from the beginning, is harder. Its a non-promo month, and that means sales is super hard.
Wish me luck!
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TRIAGE [06 Jul 2005|08:05am]
I love the word. I wanna use it all the time. I am utterly fascinated by the concept. I wanna read books about it.
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[06 Jul 2005|07:44am]
My life is based on a timeline of boys. "When did I pierce my nipple?" "Oh, yeah, that was when I was dating Todd." I dont even think 2 years ago, or freshman year. I first noticed my eczema when I was dating Levi, and I went to Japan after the year of Aram.
Ew. its all so wrong.
My live journal entries are so awful.
I feel like it would be fun to start a new one, and not talk about boys.
but then... I wouldnt have anything to say........................................................................................
who am I as a person? Am I so devoid of personality?
I could write about the book I am reading, or how intense work is now, i guess.
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[05 Jul 2005|10:41pm]
my body is all over the place. but at least i feel ok mood wise. that part of it must be a placebo. but hey, if it works...
I know the anti-depressant isnt supposed to start making me less depressed for a month or so, but I feel the other effects.
like decreased appetite... i wasnt hungry all day, but just a minute ago i got so fucking hungry i couldnt eat fast enough.
and i was all jittery jumpy agitated this morning. then i crashed tonight. i think it wore off.
its supposed to have an accumulated effect.
maybe it will be more balanced tomorrow, like he said.
i spent all night alone, and wasnt depressed or desperate to call anyone. thats a first in a while. im stoked.
im gonna study japanese again.
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[05 Jul 2005|01:19pm]
Anti-depressants are fun!!!
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[04 Jul 2005|10:05am]
I am such a slut for advertising. I am the poster boy for, "If I see a billboard, I will go." I drive back from work every day for a month and see these huge billboards for "House of Wax" or now its "Stealth" (what the hell is that about??) and although I wont go see them, I get really really curious. And I start to think, "hey, maybe that WOULD be entertaining..."
I am not a comic fan at all, but... There are posters for "The Fantastic Four" EVERYWHERE. At first I just flirted with them. "Oh hey there. A man on fire. Huh." Then our relationship became a bit more serious. I began to stop and actually look at the posters. And then, oh so seductively, the flash website hooked me. I am besotted. I am so excited to see this movie! Which does not come out yet, but next weekend- for the love of pete! How long must they keep me waiting!?
Now that would be something great to do alone today. damn it all.
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